I'm Yasmine, a.k.a Adie A Taurus Who is born on the 14th May 1987. currently working at Certis Cisco Auxiliary Police Force as and Auxiliary Police but i am still on the look-out for other jobs, preferably anything to do with children's party hosting etc. other than that, life is mundane. nothing extra-ordinary about me. but what can i say? i'm just hoping life will take a turn for the better. Insya Allah.

Saturday, June 7, 2008 { Saturday, June 07, 2008 }




matters are at ease for quite a while now, but I'm not sure till when we can sustain with these issues. i don't know how long i can hold myself together like this. if this is the way things are always turning out, isn't it better for it to be settled as fast as possible? in my current situation, i don't think i can do that on my own.

i don't mean to be t0o pers0nal in writing, but i just don't want to bottle things up any longer. keeping quiet doesn't mean i don't feel anything. everyone has feelings. so do i. why can't people understand that? all i need is support and understanding from closed ones. tighten frayed relationships among us and understand each other. it sucks having lack of communication and little time for them. sucks big time when at the end of the month, i don't get to feel the $$$ that i deserve for my hard work. it's like i don't feel that my own hard work paid off you know. it feels like merely nothing. march 26 20o9 shall be the day i am really l0oking forward to.

let me go, out of this tight grip. it's like i'm being held back by a rubber band. as if being held back, i walk further and further away from it, trying to let l0ose, only to find it snapped because of the tense friction- or whatever you call it. now everytime i try to tie a knot around the snapped area, it snaps all over again and again till now. i just feel so exhausted both mentally and physically. the former makes me have headaches and m0od swings every so often. i feel like i'm a prisoner of my own life. trying to find a key to unlock the cell but the harder i try, the further i am from it.

nahhhh.. what i've been saying isn't even half of what i'm feeling. i don't think anybody will literally understand what's happening to and around me for once. i just hope someone will. and i know girlfriend does, only that it will take time for her to adapt to it all. i don't want our relationship to be at stake though, just cause of these things. i need to ease my mind. so0the myself from all the wicked and cruel happenings, especially recently.

i'm just at a loss for words already. hoping for a better tomorrow and a better start on monday, g0odnight to all bloggers =)

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