I'm Yasmine, a.k.a Adie A Taurus Who is born on the 14th May 1987. currently working at Certis Cisco Auxiliary Police Force as and Auxiliary Police but i am still on the look-out for other jobs, preferably anything to do with children's party hosting etc. other than that, life is mundane. nothing extra-ordinary about me. but what can i say? i'm just hoping life will take a turn for the better. Insya Allah.

Saturday, May 31, 2008 { Saturday, May 31, 2008 }





above are some of the random pics taken from the official safwarriors webbie during our preliminary rounds. g0od luck to all participating in the semi-finals tthis evening. praying hard we'll get to make it for the finals this coming 1st, which falls on the sunday. hey, that's exactly tomorrow right? haha.. come down to ngee ann civic plaza at 7 alright? but best is to come earlier to get a great view =)

we'll be having our breakfast at macD this morning and i'm praying hard dear's giving me breakfast m0olahs. things have been complicated, but not wishing to elaborate anything further- atleast not for now. wish us all the best of luck tomorrow. we're so in need of that. and by the way, it's 12.08 am right now :)

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Wednesday, May 28, 2008 { Wednesday, May 28, 2008 }

i don't expect anything from you. at least not in the present. i don't wanna be a burden to you cause you've helped me a lot. baby dear, you should know i appreciate everything that you've done for me in the past 6 months plus. 7 monthsary is coming and i want our relationship to be stronger than how it is now. i know that is also what you wish for right dear?

i've nothing to blog about. just trying to keep this blog alive. thanks a lot to deq raiha too for helping me early this morning. if not for both you and my dear, i don't think i'll ever get to work. competition date is getting nearer and there's training tonight till 10 plus as usual. hope all goes well this 31st. i'm glad my dear is dropping by the competition to see us perform. but i'm still not sure what time she's coming over cause she just won't tell me. i suppose she wants to spy on me before popping up on me. well, that's my girl. never trust me. but still, i know she's just scared i'll flirt around right? and do stupid stuffs behind your back? so far have i done anything stupid behind you, especially if you come spying on me? no right? hah! told you i love you cicak!

something happened that quite saddened me a lot last night. i don't wish to go there again, but seriously, everything that happened wasn't as i expected. though i did tell dear once that i did have the feeling my phone's gone. well, it is! and for real too. how come? don't ask. stupid question, honestly. of course la someone sold it right? it won't run away by itself you know. that phone is memorable to me. to me, it's my lucky charm. sounds stupid but that's just what it means to me. it means a lot and it means everything. i don't know. i just guess that because of that phone, my problems won't have come up to me until it all became like this. it's too hard to explain how much it means to me but still, you should know. all the important datas. the project i've been working on. important contacts. me and my dear sayang's pictures especially! our 1st month. the 14th november pictures. all in there!! suey!!!

personal issues aside, i prefer having my old phone back. please let me have it back ........

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Saturday, May 24, 2008 { Saturday, May 24, 2008 }

it's the 24th may. and i got to know that siket hari bulan, the sundal called mama miss and declare herself as my girlfie. tell me what the heck is wrong with that btich?! if she's reading this, better still! as if i care what she wanna think about me! we are so over! our relationship is oh-so last year! as if i even have the feeling of wanting to declare you as my wifey siak! really no self dignity this kind of people! it's like she doesn't know what shame is, telling others she's my girl and everything. God knows what she wants from mama miss! guess what bitch! if you think wanting my number is a g0od idea to getting back to me or whatever, think twice! if possible, keep on thinking till you're done! always know i will never be yours. once bitten, twice shy. forget it, bitch!

i didn't go for today's match. i stayed with girlfriend and deq raiha at mama miss's place. we were the last to leave. big issue this afternoon settled already :) thank g0odness! but still, i'm not sure whether this thing will continue the way it is or what. we just wait and see. i'm working tomorrow. that sucks big time! i hate this so much! cause i have to cover for my absence on thursday. i was in girlfriend's home, remember? heheheheheheheheh XP

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if i'm an effing playboy, why can i take care of my girlfriend for almost 7 months to come?! i don't get these people :/

Tuesday, May 20, 2008 { Tuesday, May 20, 2008 }

random post for today. i'm just so fcuked up with someone's behaviour. i had enough. do what you wanna do. i've already lost all hope. i don't want people to start blaming me for everything all over again. i didn't ask for this position in the first place, thank you very much. take it from me as you please. do you think i care anymore? i can't afford to care about this anymore. i have so many more commitments in my life. and all you could say was, 'smorg pn keje?!' people, if you put yourselves in my shoes, you will definitely know what i feel. my heart is really hothothot burning hot! when i heard the whole thing in the first place, i really felt like punching that person's face till i'm satisfied. and then i thought things have settled down. well, i should have known better.

now we don't even know who to trust in this anymore. it's like there's nobody that we can trust anymore. why?! don't ask stupid question k. all you need to know right now is on the 24th, if i can't take it anymore, only God knows what i'll do. i had enoughhhhhhhhh!!!!!

nothing compares to what i feel right now. i'm at work. i'm busy. to them, busy is just normal busy mode, that kind of busy. if i don't go to work just because of that, i will go in that place again. that sway place i've been avoiding. please. i don't want any trouble. that's why work is work. and relationship is relationship what. nothing related to that particular subject. why in the world must you meddle MY relationship matters into these issues?! an issue that does not even concern MY relationship???!!! sick and tired of all these .......... VERY sick and tired of all these -_-''''''''''''''

Thursday, May 15, 2008 { Thursday, May 15, 2008 }

but i was touched to find a mango birthday cake awaiting me in the cheerleader's locker ro0m after last evening's match. we ended the game with a final score of 2 (perak) - 0 (SAF) . we'll just have to wait for the next match on monday at cck stadium vs albirex niigata. B0O SAMA DIA! >:[

won't be long post at all, this one. cause i need to go. out of camp the whole day again. confirm slack and sleep in the vehicle. sorry. nowadays i tend to sleep a lot during daytime. and i just want fee to stop thinking and just forget about all those words i said to her. i'm really sorry. but i guess i just thought it was really not a big deal earlier. now i know how much of a big deal it is if i still keep it all a hushush. i love you more than i love myself. yesterday is yesterday, okay? today is today. i want you to be happy. i'm just really sorry. the decision is yours to make but i hope you will keep loving me like you've always done. please forgive me.........

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Sunday, May 11, 2008 { Sunday, May 11, 2008 }

i'm fcuked up and pressured about all that is happening. it's not happening for the first time. i had enough handling this by myself. it's all my fault and everything that goes wrong is because of me. it's as if i don't even do any g0od in it. not even once. my heart is burning like what right now. only God knows how it feels like.

i don't wish to elaborate about personal affairs and family matters cause i guess that's just not me. but nobody would just keep quiet about being pinpointed at all the time right? met up with ira last night and she told me what happened. fine! say what you guys wanna say about me! sh0ot whatever you wanna sh0ot at me! i don't fcuk care anymore. trust me if you want to. don't if you feel like you can't. i didn't ask for this position in the first place. why did you guys thrust this position to me? because in the first place, you guys were so confident and trustworthy that i can do this. now everything is my fault isit? my fault for being very busy with work? and the nature of my work only God knows!

what is kesabaran if everyone keep saying they have their own limits to their patience and assume i have no limits to it at all? i did expect what dear told me last night but why can't, for once, they stop saying it's my fault all these while?! it's like i'm the super villain who don't deserve to love someone without having to be called a playboy etc?! buat darah aku panas and boiling to the max tauuuuuu >:[[[[

i actually don't want to say anything any further but keeping it to myself will only release the loose cannon inside me. anyway dear doesn't want me to fight and get into any trouble. but heck! i couldn't sleep last night. and now i just got a few minutes of rest. i need to cook for my mom since it's mother's day. i have training at the stadium at 2. so i have to rush. i don't even have sundays to myself. and i also want to give time for my dear. other commitments tak kire? i've not been attending CC meetings at all and they say i pentingkan CC. what is this!?

enough is enough. i just don't want to change to my old attitude. cause of her parents trust towards me. cause of my promises to myself and other people around me. moreover, i can't seem to. but please.......... stop all these nonsense!!!

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Friday, May 9, 2008 { Friday, May 09, 2008 }

i feel so sick and my voice is so hoarse! i'm at work right now and i'm going home late tonight cause i have to attend a dinner at the HQ at Selarang Camp, which is at changi. i hope by tonight, my pay already come in. cause i need to top up some more. and there're so many things to settle. money, money, money! binget ahhh!!


oh, and not forgetting! baby dear! CELAMAT MONTHSARY YG KE 6 EH BABY! semoga kite berkekalan sampai lahh bile2. let people say what they want to say. just focus on your studies and everything first okay? that should come first. all the best in your MYE results next week ya? i've got nothing more to post about lahh but you should know what is in my heart right dear? always remind yourself all that. pak you!!! hehehehehehehe C:

Thursday, May 8, 2008 { Thursday, May 08, 2008 }

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Monday, May 5, 2008 { Monday, May 05, 2008 }

Saturday, May 3, 2008 { Saturday, May 03, 2008 }

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Thursday, May 1, 2008 { Thursday, May 01, 2008 }