Tuesday, April 29, 2008
{ Tuesday, April 29, 2008 }
this blog has been dead for exactly 2 weeks and 6 days. since i'm heading off to camp before 10 tonight, i guess a quick update on my life won't hurt. in terms of my relationship issues, i guess everything is settled and big issues between me and her are settled. i'm blissed with her presence, though i don't really feel like spilling 100% of what's inside of me to her. not every secrets are meant to be told, especially if it's way too personal. but ofcourse, i know that deep inside, she still knows how i feel. only that she just doesn't show it. putting relationship issues aside, the past 2 weeks and 6 days have been really hectic for me. work is another issue, but most importantly, the piling of the problems i have to bear. keeping things mum, i think people should understand. the working world is real cruel. everything is just damnright not fair.
all i want is for them to make me feel appreciated for all the little things that i have contributed and committed to my commitment. we all share the same motive, same goals and same achievements. why am i always the last to know? why am i always the one left out on things that are happening around me? i feel like an outsider everytime these things happen. i miss the former seniors. ikotkan hati, i want them back. for now, everything is just cock up. wishing things will go the way i want it to. only i know nothing will. life is just not perfect. i can't blame anyone for these.
i'm just so stressed with some things somewhere. ikotkan hati, i want to scream my lungs out and just wish things will go the way they should be with just a snap of a finger. okay, maybe not with a snap of a finger, but atleast dengan berkat doa Lailahalilallah. Amin Ya Raba'al Al'Amin. Amin.
A lonely seagull flies the winds
Majestic... soaring...gliding wings
A single screech sounds from the sky
Come fly with me... come here and fly
My spirit floats to be a part
I feel the beating of its heart
My soul, one with this bird of sea
Now knows the meaning to fly free
I feel the winds caress my soul
And soar the streams without a goal
My being trembles of delight
A treasure I received tonight
The seagull's flight of soaring high
The gift of what it means to fly
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